Acrylic, oil and silver leaf on wood panel

30x30cm

This piece represents a self-indulgent descent into depression, marked by stagnation and resistance to change. Although the figures are surrounded by symbols of hope and transformation, they turn away from the silver lining within their suffering. The title, CLEAN ME, refers to an expectation of forgiveness, sympathy, and rescue from others, paired with an inability or refusal to take action. Written in all capital letters, the title feels more like a demand than a plea, revealing a desire for external salvation without recognizing that true healing must come from within.

The work explores themes of doubt, self-hatred, denial of growth, and deep apathy. The central figure, symbolic of these struggles, remains stuck, aware of what they need, yet unable to move. The phrase “clean me” becomes a desperate expression of the wish to be freed from self-loathing.

A presence of silver leaf runs down the centre of the composition, symbolizing the elusive silver lining in moments of despair. Two figures flank the line: one turns away in rejection, while the other stares longingly, hoping for change but too paralyzed to pursue it.